OHHH Life............

With my life starting to come down from a boil to a simmer I found time to blog! (Its kind of long today) The last few weeks have been a complete 100% MESS!

My little guy broke his foot, my mom had emergency surgery, and I let my personal life get in the way of school. All of these together were not a good mix at all. After a few weeks though things have gotten MUCH better and I'm back on track!
I RARELY let my personal life get in the way of school. It never ends up good, after a few mistakes here and there I'm back on track and I'm reassured that the most important thing is to get my college education so I can provide for me and my little man. 
The other night I had one of those mommy moments. I came home from class to find that my little guy was already asleep in bed. Class days are hard because I only get to see him about 10 minutes before I leave for class in the morning and only for a few hours before he has to go to bed at night. So to find him asleep was a little hard for me. I snuck into his room and sat next to his bed. Thinking about how much I have given up in my life for this little boy and how much he means to me. 
          Not all moms can have the experiences that I have had being a single mom. This is a GOOD thing, since I wish and pray that NO mom or person has to go what I've had to go through being a mom, but I also have an entire different understanding of various things then I think most moms have. I have literally given up everything for him. I can't even begin to describe what I have done to make his life the best life possible. I could say cars, clothes, fancy things, but those are all materialistic. I work, go to school, and be a mom. Some of you are thinking, "Well DUH, what did you think was going to happen when you decided to be a single mom?" Yes these things are all true, but I have such a deep understanding of so many thing now that not everyone gets to understand. The atonement being a huge role in my life. 
          Another mommy moment: I love to sing when I put my little guy to bed, our favorite songs being "I am a Child of God" and "I love to see the Temple." Sometimes he just wants me to leave the room, other times he likes me to sit and sing to him and talk to him. This night was one of those nights where he was just complaining and crying, I was thinking, "well... I'll just go put him in bed and he will calm down and go to sleep" (he RARELY likes me to stay in his room when he is upset). I went in his room, tucked him into bed (screaming of course) and instead of leaving, I decided to sit there and stay with him. I started singing "I Love to See the Temple" and he calmed right down and just listened to me sing. When I got to the part about being sealed as an eternal family, I was hit with a rush of overwhelming feeling. Knowing that I need to do everything possible in my life so that me and him can be sealed one day to a worthy priesthood holder that will love both of us. School is important, my personal life is important, but not as important as being sealed to him forever. He is always number 1 on my list and he will never budge from that spot. Knowing the love I have for him, I can only begin to imagine the love Heavenly Father has for each of us. 
          School is a close second because I know that I need to finish school in order to provide for us. Which makes me a little upset that I let personal things in life start affecting that. The good thing is! I have addressed that problem and I'm working on fixing it :)

Valentines Day... I have a few things to say about you Valentines Day! :) I know most people hate Valentines Day, I myself dont necessarily enjoy it. But here is something enlightening for all you single people. I've had boyfriends on valentines day.... I've dated people around Valentines day.... never... have I ever received flowers from one of them. Its just another day to most guys. This year, I received an AMAZING bouquet of flowers from one of my dearest friends. The same person I had to opportunity to go to the temple with a few days before. Ladies.... we dont need boyfriends in our lives to make us feel important. We need friends!!!!! He is just one of those people that you know will always hold a special place in your heart and we all need people like that in our lives. My encouragement to you, is to go find someone who makes you feel important, and that person doesnt have to be a boyfriend (or girlfriend). 

Here is one of my hardest classes this semester! Technically, when I graduate, I will be considered an Epidemiologist. Pretty Fancy huh! 

Anddddd here is my AMAZING bouquet!!! Still sitting on my Table :)